Tuesday, 11 April 2017

FROM SEMINARIAN TO ESCORT

"I WAS A SEMINARIAN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND NOW I AM A GAY ESCORT AND SOME OF MY CLIENTS ARE BISHOPS AND PRIESTS".


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So began an email letter that I recently received from a young man in his 30's who now lives in Rome. While he himself was born in the "new world" he is of Irish ancestry. He was accepted for the priesthood of his home diocese and then sent to Rome to study theology for 4 years.

I met this ex seminarian through an Irish seminarian - now ordained - who studied along side him in a Roman university. He visited Ireland on one occasion and he and his Irish seminarian friend came to see me in Larne. 

I have been asking him for some time to write an anonymous account of his journey and he has now agreed - on condition of course that I do not identify him or anyone connected with him.

I will let him speak for himself:

"From about the age of ten I knew that I was gay. However from the same age, as an altar boy, I dearly wanted to be a priest.

I had one or two fleeting and very low grade encounters when I was in secondary school and felt guilty about them and confessed them. The priest, while being kind, told me I had committed very serious sins. I resolved not to commit those sins again and after that I had no sexual experiences until I entered the seminary to train for the priesthood.

I was three years in the seminary in my own country and while nothing sexually happened to me during my first year I did have a number of sexual encounters with young priests and seminarians in my second and third years in the seminary. I also engaged in sexual activity with others during holidays away from the seminary. I had no guilt feelings about being gay and the more sexual experiences I had the less that bothered me morally. I had come to the conclusion that God accepted me as a gay man and that God did not expect me to refrain from human and sexual intimacy all my life. That kind of a God would be a cruel God in my thinking. 

I had been gifted with good academic abilities and was among those chosen to study their theology in Rome. I was excited going to Rome for all kinds of reasons and I had no idea that my sex life in Rome was going to be so active. Any seminarian or priest who has trained in Rome - especially in the last couple of decades will know that the majority of priests and seminarians there are of the gay orientation and that many of them act on their orientation.

For better or for worse God had given me very good looks and a very attractive body. From the beginning in Rome I knew that I was being given special attention because I was handsome. This did not go to my head. I just admitted to myself that it was a fact.

During my first months in Rome many priests and seminarians "came on" to me. I tried to resist this but I was not strong enough I suppose. I was far away from home and I knew no one except those in my clerical circles. 

I always tried to have sex in the context of love and feelings - that is not sex just for sex's sake. I met some priests and seminarians who wanted relationships and others who just wanted sex. I was invited to a lot of parties and gatherings in various apartments and restaurants and it soon became clear to me that there were many priest / priest, priest / seminarian and seminarian / seminarian "couples. However that did not always mean that they were faithful to their "partners". Not at all. 

I was invited to take part in "threesomes" and in gay sex parties. I refused. Not because I am "good" but simply because I do not like it when there are more than two people being intimate at the one time. It is a personal preference. For instance I have never been to a gay sauna - and Rome is full of them - and they are full of clerics.

Eventually I did have encounters with clerics of the episcopal rank - some resident in Rome on some on visits to Rome for things like the 5 yearly Ad Limina.

These men often brought me out to dinner in expensive restaurants and then back to their hotel room for "fun" or a stay over. Most of them gave me financial gifts and occasional other gifts. One or two invited me to visit them in their home countries and I did that on a small number of occasions.

My whole lifestyle led to to a personal crisis - not to a crisis of faith and I believed and still believe that God loves me regardless of what I am or what I do.

But it led me to a crisis of vocation. I realised that I personally could not preach one thing and do another.

I realised that I could not pretend to be celibate and chaste and be secretly sexually active.

I decided - and decided of my own accord - to leave the seminary and no longer pursue a priestly vocation - at least not as long as I was sexually active.

My dilemma then was whether or not I wanted to stay in Rome or return to my own country or indeed move to yet another country. I had plenty of offers from clerics to move to their countries.



I decided that I would stay in Rome. I also decided that I would embrace the role of a gay escort as my source of income.

A monsignor friend of mine arranged for me to rent a small apartment from a wealthy and elderly lady friend of his. I was offered the apartment rent free and I refused. I insisted on paying the going rate as rent. By this time I had built up a nice little nest egg from the many "gifts" I had received.

I am now buying the apartment from the son of the elderly lady who has since passed away. I still work as a gay escort and while my clients are not exclusively clerical I still have a number of junior and senior clerics who avail of my services. I have a set fee for my services but am often given extra. I have also received expensive gifts of things like jewellery and watches from clients. My Rolex was a gift from a grateful and kind prelate. I have my own car and have my fair share of good holidays - some holidays being working holidays.

I know that I am not the only young gentleman in Rome that takes care of the needy clergy that visit the Eternal City. I realise that I will be getting older and there will come a time when younger and more beautiful boys will replace me on the "Via Piacere".

I do remember our meeting in Larne with ****** and the nice meal you treated us to. I have not heard from ******* in a long time. I heard from someone in The Irish College that he is in a parish. I doubt if he will be overworking himself. I do read your blog and enjoy it. I never cease to be amazed at how gullible the poor Irish are when they think that their bishops and priests are saints. Those of us at the coal face of the clerical world know that celibacy has never worked, is not working and will never work for the majority. I agree with you when you say that the priesthood is now a majority gay profession. If your readers knew a quarter of what we "Romans" know they would be horrified. Arrivederci. ****"








37 comments:

  1. Of course, this could be a complete work of fiction, and given the nature of the postings on this blog in the recent past I suspect that's what it is.

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  2. Is there an update on the Kerry Deacon King Puck?

    I don't think he is escort material but with that bright RED jock-strap of his, who knows???

    :-)

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    1. Deacon Puck was heard saying that Derwin is in a sex clinic and not on sabbatical......

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    2. These sex clinics must be bulging at the seams?

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  3. As a former seminarian of The Irish College in Rome I find this story 100 % credible. In my time in Rome many seminarians frequented gay bars and saunas. One guy in particular - who was later ordained hung around one if Rome's famous gay cruising spots and picked up other young men. He also had a very suspucious relationship with a bishop who lavished a lot of money and expensive gifts on him. I made his activities known to those in authority. Nothing ever happened. He was / is being protected / facilitated. Pat I think you know about this case already?

    Munster Priest.

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    1. I do indeed and so do some Irish bishops.

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  4. I think this story is very plausable and more revealing than anything I was exposed to in Rome thankfully. Via Piacere. Is this a real street or a very apt metaphor. I remember Rome as being a very sexualy awake city. I have no issue with Gay clergy. I do wonder about this do what you like mentality and where all the money comes from to fund extreme extravagance

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    1. Basically the money comes from Sunday collections and weekly envelopes and the interest gained on invested money.

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  5. Nothing suprises me anymore Pat - its Holy week - the week our Lord and Saviour died for us. I have no problem with gay clergy or clergy in a relationship at all. They are human. The problem i have is this flith - sex on the go I call it. These men of God are holding his body in their hands - some respect would be good.

    I visited a mate of mine in the Beda College last summer - as soon as i arrived there - the attention was on me like a new piece of meat surrounded by dogs - it disgusted me.

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    1. I am sorry to hear you had that experience.

      Friends in Rome tell me that the Irish and English seminarians are the worst?

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  6. The staff in these seminaries are just as bad

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  7. Regarding Long Tower needing another priest, Father Collins was not liked for he just mumbled instead of preaching. On Ash Wednesday, they ran out of communion and half the queue had to go back to their seats. There are rumours of a dispute between Collins and the folk group which is why they asked him not to keep the vestments they bought him as a gift for going with them to Rome. He donated the vestments to Bishop Daly who was buried in them. The nature of the war between Collins and the folk group was quite fierce. Father Collins gay walk and mannerisms made him the subject of ridicule as well. McKeown knows something and had a far fetched and devious justification in the Derry Journal yesterday for why he allowed the tricolour on Martin McGuinness's coffin.

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    1. Its simple.

      The RCC has one rule for the rich / famous and another rule for the ordinary Joe or Mary.

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  8. Its a great pity we are not all lily white like Pat Buckley!

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    1. Pat Buckley have never claimed or pretended to be "lily white".

      Other have though!

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  9. 11.06 I really agree with your views. You mention that this is Holy Week.
    Today is Spy Wednesday, the day when one of Jesus' chosen friends betrayed him for thirty pieces of silver.
    Maybe the opening story above which describes how someone used his seminarian years to serve as training for his chosen life as a male escort is more apt than it first appears - -Here is someone who had the privilege and opportunity to enter into a special relationship of love and service for his Master but squandered it in favour of the wages of sin. To those who are given most, most is expected.

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  10. Even if celibacy were abolished, I believe you would still have these promiscuous men who are utterly unsuitable for priesthood.

    Priests who are engaging in the kinds of activity being described by this "escort" should be dismissed from the priesthood.

    Seminarians, likewise, exhibiting this scandalous behaviour must be expelled from the seminary.

    No priest is perfect. They are all sinners; but this flagrant disregard for God's Law is shocking. To tolerate it is, in itself, a grave sin and scandal.

    God have mercy on the soul of any bishop, at his judgement, who "allows" these activities and/or participates in them himself.

    All of that notwithstanding, these scandals are nothing new in Church history. Things have been as bad, if not worse - and thus it shall be until the Lord removes the weeds from among His wheat, as He has told us Himself that He will do.

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  11. Someone mentioned the Beda College in Rome earlier. I visited a friend there a few years back, I felt most uncomfortable by the attention given to me by several students. The big guy serving drinks from the bar was sloshed and too over friendly and I had numerous invites to the best restaurants and tickets for the best seats at a papal audience. It was literally like bees around a honey pot. I would choose never to stay or visit there again. I heard the story of an English Seminarian there a few years back who made unwanted advances towards an Australian Seminarian who took great exception to this. The Australian knocked some of his teeth down his throat and broke his leg. Needless to say, the Australian was thrown out and the English fat queen Seminarian was allowed to stay on and was ordained by Cardinal Nichols a few years back. That's only one of the goings on at the Beda. The Beda students make a special trip in October each year to the English, Irish and American colleges to size up the new intake of Seminarians. It's all rather sordid and seedy.
    Birmingham PP

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    1. Its seens the Beda is an "interesting" place?

      They are international and have a lot of "late vocations".

      I wonder what they think of our "Gorgeous"?

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    2. PS: Seems the poor Australian got a raw deal for defending his honour.

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  12. He did get a raw deal Pat and the one who instigated it and had an attraction for him got off Scott free. Despite great reservations being made regarding this person His Eminence in Westminster ordained him anyway.

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  13. 18.02
    Looks like gorgeous and King Puck will be ordained anyway too despite the great reservations about their suitability. It seems to be a common theme among Bishops to ordain totally unsuitable men. What do you have to do to get thrown out of a Seminary these days? Sexual promiscuity isn't a good enough reason it seems to get the boot.

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  14. No American uses the term "secondary school" you're pure fiction

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    1. Who said he was American ???

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    2. (Sadie on the sofa) Och darlin'at 19.37 people don't know what you're on about, so they don't.
      But the good thing is that you used the right form of "you're", so yon other ones won't be scoldin' you. Isn't that something!

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  15. The term, "secondary school" wasn't used by anyone on the blog today let alone an American. What planet are you on 19.37 and what is it you are trying to prove exactly?
    Observer

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  16. So Fr X is one of our openly gay priests using my money
    Which parish is he in in Louth ?

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    1. They're not going to reveal themselves, Anon 20:42. Its not only one another of them that is taking it in the ass; its the laity too.

      Get used to it.

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  17. Fr X is not openly gay and are we 100% sure he is in Co. Louth?

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  18. Many years ago now, a gay friend once told me he went with a Catholic priest only to discover he was transsexual; very manly looking but without... well, you know. I wonder if that happens a lot in the Church.

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  19. Pat, would you write such a blog if your Mother was still alive?

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  20. Don't think anyone hides anything from their mothers nowadays
    I know minetalk openly to me always have.

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  21. 19:37 is absolutely correct. If he was really American he'd say "high school". My wife is American and I had to explain "secondary school" to her.

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  22. Interesting blog today. It seems entirely plausible and is probably quite accurate.
    Two new seminarians will be ordained to the diaconate next Tuesday in Rome by Diarmuid Martin......I think there is a third guy from some other diocese. I presume that Gorgeous will act as deacon at the ceremony?

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    1. Has the Irish College taken its turn to serve Papal liturgies in Rome? Gorgeous next to Francis would make quite a photo.

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